his week had been seriously fuked up......

all these feelings and problems had been spinning inside of me like having butterfly fluttering in my stomach, unable to let it out or force it out. it is a good thing this is not the first time so i guess i will soon get numb of it. just gonna be who i am, the guy who wear a frenly mask all the time tying to smile for everyone. but it is so tiring.... i wished i could took off my mask and sleep forever.....

but that will be just running away from all these problems...... so all i could do now whenever i feel down is to run so much so that i will be too shag to think( all right, shu hui, ur idea do work somehow, LOL) , draw all sorts of shit so that i will be too busy to think about it, go mass shopping in town to make myself happy( but i got no money le, T,,T) or play my beloved piano to cool myself down( i think this is the best way, haha).



Theme Of Tears


to describe how low i feel, i decided to play a piano piece to show my feeling. got some mistakes but i got no time to retake. hope u people like it. please give your comment too. but before u people start to give negative comments, please take into consideration that i have never taken only piano class before in my life and i learn all these on my own!!! ahha, thank!!!

pardon me for wearing so unpresentable( as what shu hui had commented) . she want me to wear suit or more something more presentable so that I could act more professional. LOL. cant really blame me cause i did these in the morning before work as i just suddenly have this urge to play a sad song. LOL. dun have time to retake, shall do a proper recording once i have the free time. LOL.


sometime i really wondered.... if i were to be given the chance to learn piano since i was young like how all my frens who know piano are, will i be a pro by now.....? haiz.... this is seriously fuked up, so much things that i wanted to do yet not given the chances to unleash my desire for it. i guess life is unfair so i shall be unfair too then.....haha...

oh ya, Final Fantasy orchestra is finally going to perform this sat!!!! yeah~~~~ have been waiting for them since the start of this year. watched some preview and must admit, THEY ARE GOOD!!! haha. this is like the only thing i look forward to now, ok, maybe tioman getaway too. LOL!! but now i got an extra tix cause benjamin was unable to make it last min cause of NS. sianx.... nvm, shall called up some of my fren to see if they are able to make it. CyaZ!!

sorry people for this emo post of mine cause i really dun know who to share these thoughts with but i have to g et it out someway... haha... so might as well share with everyone...hahaha. i promise i will try not to be emo anymore. will continued to wear this mask to smile for everyone. ^_^!!

enjoy your day people!!!



~ Love Is Full Of Lies ~
~ Yet So Beautiful To Our Eyes ~

~~Burned into ur eyes @ 5/21/2009 07:34:00 AM~~